"It was easy enough to kill yourself in a fit of despair. It was easy enough to play the martyr. It was harder to do nothing. To endure your life. To wait."

I don't feel like doing anything and I feel entirely alone. Which I know I ain't, but I just feel like everyone secretly hates me and thinks I'm an ugly useless person. I don't want to get to know new people, I don't want to suffer even more. If I don't know anyone, they can't abandon me. And I am scared, so scared of that. Being alone scares me, and I don't want others to have that effect on me so I try to distance myself from everyone and everything...

Luckily I can play video games and immerse into worlds unlike this one, that aren't full of shallow people and suffering. I can glorify their worlds as a comfort of being stuck in this one, my own, my prison.