I like art, metal, books and video games.useful intro yes;
I haven't been nearly as active as I wanted to on this blog or well anywhere where I wanted to be. Except for League I don't think I've been active at all this year. It's been a rollercoaster and it's mostly been shit. I've been to so many doctors appointments for different reasons, it was discovered I have diabetes, both my two oldest guinea pigs passed away this year at different times, I've been extremely anxious, been very sick from blood sugar stuff and yeah idunno I guess that's the worst I remember anyway. Good point is I bought two new guinea pig just at the end of the year and played some good games, and oh discovered some good music. Better than nothing.
However looking forward (for now anyway...) would be to write about New years resolutions.
1. Read more books and novels.
2. Write more.
3. Draw and paint often.
4. Exercise and lose more weight.
5. Discover new music.
6. Start something new.
7. Be serious in learning top and midlane in League. (I only really like the mechanical champs and should stop being afraid to practice them.)
8. Take more pictures.
9. Remember that it's never too late to kill yourself, so calm down.
Make hentai; not war.
- Coppernicus f;2917
I feel quite alone in a way I never seem to be able to satisfy. People seem to be elsewhere when you spend time with them; and I don't know if they have changed or if I am the one who has changed. Packing my bags and moving wouldn't solve nearly as much as I wish it would, the problem still lies with me. I often think about killing myself and seeing it as the only way out, and while I hold that thought still it's not easy to go through with. It is the only way to truly escape the shackles of my own mind; the prison where I've lived for years in. I can hardly go outside anymore and I don't even want to meet my friends. Too many concerns, too much OCD and instabilities.
The swan sang with a broken neck
Out by the pool, behind the fence
You can't forgive me when
you know if I had the gun I'd chose to shoot again
APPEARANCE:
- I am 5′7″ or taller
- I wear glasses
- I have at least one tattoo
- I have at least one piercing
- I have blonde hair
- I have brown eyes
- I have short hair
- My abs are at least somewhat defined (I wish)
- I have or have had braces
- There is something I would change about the way I look
PERSONALITY:
- My Hogwarts house is: Gryffindor Hufflepuff Ravenclaw Slytherin (did a test for this and got Slytherin so haha)
- I am an introvert
- I like love meeting new people
- People tell me that I’m funny
- Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me
- I enjoy physical challenges
- I enjoy mental challenges
- I’m playfully rude with people I know well
- I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it
- There is something I would change about my personality
ABILITY:
- I can sing well
- I can play an instrument
- I can do over 30 pushups without stopping
- I’m a fast runner
- I can draw well
- I have a good memory
- I’m good at doing math in my head
- I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute
- I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling
- I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch
- I know how to throw a proper punch
HOBBIES:
- I enjoy playing sports
- I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else
- I’m in a orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else
- I have learned a new song in the past week
- I work out at least once a week
- I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months
- I have drawn something in the past month
- I enjoy writing
- Fandoms are my #1 passion
- I do or have done martial arts
EXPERIENCES:
- I have had my first kiss
- I have had alcohol
- I have scored the winning goal in a sports game
- I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting
- I have been at an overnight event
- I have been in a taxi
- I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year.
- I have beaten a video game in one day
- I have visited another country
- I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts
MY LIFE:
- I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”
- I live close to my school
- My parents are still together
- I have at least one sibling
- I live in the United States
- There is snow right now where I live
- I have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month (I dont go to school atm)
- I have a smartphone
- I have at least 15 CDs
- I share my room with someone
RANDOM SHIT:
- I have breakdanced
- I know a person named Jamie
- I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce
- I have dyed my hair
- I’m listening to one song on repeat right now
- I have punched someone in the past week
- I know someone who has gone to jail
- I have broken a bone
- I have eaten a waffle today
- I know what I want to do with my life
- I speak at least 2 languages fluently
- I have made a new friend in the past year
